Is it getting worse?

One of the things I dislike about Endometriosis and Adenomyosis (just one of many things!) is the fact you can't physically see whats happening inside. You never truly know if is getting worse. You know your symptoms and how you're feeling, but you don't definitely know its a side effect of the disease or something else.

I know that in the last year my pain has steadily been getting worse. The pain level has increased. The amount of time I've taken off work has increased. The days out that I have missed out on has increased. And my sofa surfing time has definitely increased! But what is actually going on inside?!

I've started getting a lot more pain on my right side and in particular in the last 24 hours, I've been getting shooting pain in my right shoulder. Its agony and trying to get comfortable is near on impossible. But is it the disease or something else?! I know shoulder pain can be a symptom of endo but what does it mean is happening for me inside?

You can convince yourself that things are getting worse. Sometimes it is and sometimes its not. But I'm worried. I just need my operation date through now. The first step is a hospital appointment on Thursday with the colon specialist. Hopefully that will help answer some questions.

Until then I guess I will have to keep guessing about whats going on inside...

A x

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